有無發覺而家好興扮cute,好難頂,我conclude一下邊的的算係扮cute.

1)講話時瞪大雙眼的望住對方,你會留意到佢眼皮好努力的上反
2)講野壓把聲到好似卡通人物一樣
3)講野的語氣較慢,好似一個一個字咁講,又係好似細路牙牙學語時的模樣

想死.

生日前一日,收到S君來電,佢話咁好彩找到一張有我出生年月日的鈔票,幾有心.

生日當日同E一齊度過,本來想去ocean park,不過下雨改變了行程.

生日後一日本來約了同學,不過約來約去佢地都無到,得兩個出現,又唔係話唔開心既,不過就有比較咁咯. 想的化的咪話要學不問回報咯,不過無回報又點會付出呢(有好多exception case, 在這裡 apply to 同學 only).

仲未放榜,好驚,唔想重考... 希望可以一take 過.

Having midterm right now, quite busy at the moment, trying to make up for the bad grades last term, more opinion drafting coming, work hard and aim for higher scores.

Watch 2 movies last night, one was "Airplane" and the other was "Broken Flowers".

Someone hid "The Break up" DVD in school, it shows that the DVD is available but it's not on stack.

Class started last week, thought it would be tough for the first 2 weeks, but it turns out to be 2 very relaxing weeks. Nothing to revise at night and almost go out every night.

Next week will be the best week, only lectures with no tutorials, very free. Started my social connection campaign, arranged some lunches and dinner.

Will do the same for the 2nd exam, past paper training, stop wasting time to read those notes as they always stick with the old questions anyways.

After all these years for exam torture, I start enjoying exam, because after exam another semester will begin and this means you have less left...and this shows progress. hoho

I have watched Science of Sleep.

Met an old friend in the afternoon as he called me up, he found a Dollar note with my bday on it so he want to give it to me.  The quick meet was not as smooth as I thought, he kept saying things which I don't like to hear, about my relationships and stuff (though I didn't tell him anything).  I don't see him any better than me, and I think people just can't make judgment out of nothing.

I guess when one get older, you have stronger will and confession of your own, it's hard to accept another's advice as you have no ground to believe so, they are just bullshiting and dig your weak point and attack you.

Friends are hard to get.

Siempre que te pregunto
Que, cuándo, cómo y dónde
Tú siempre me respondes
Quizás, quizás, quizás

Y así pasan los días
Y yo, desesperando
Y tú, tú contestando
Quizás, quizás, quizás

Estás perdiendo el tiempo
Pensando, pensando
Por lo que más tú quieras
¿Hasta cuándo? ¿Hasta cuándo?

Y así pasan los días
Y yo, desesperando
Y tú, tú contestando
Quizás, quizás, quizás

Estás perdiendo el tiempo
Pensando, pensando
Por lo que más tú quieras
¿Hasta cuándo? ¿Hasta cuándo?

Y así pasan los días
Y yo, desesperando
Y tú, tú contestando
Quizás, quizás, quizás

English translation of original Spanish lyrics:

"Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps"

I am always asking you
When, how and where
You always tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

The days pass this way
And I am despairing
And you, you always answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

You are wasting time
Thinking, thinking
That which you want most
Until when? Until when?

The days pass this way
And I am despairing
And you, you always answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

You are wasting time
Thinking, thinking
That which you want most
Until when? Until when?

The days pass this way
And I am despairing
And you, you always answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

English lyrics:

"Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps"

You won't admit you love me and so
How am I ever to know
You only tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

A million times I ask you and then
I ask you over again
You only answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

If you can't make your mind up
We'll never get started
And I don't want to wind up
Being parted, broken hearted

So if you really love me say, "yes"
But if you don't, dear, confess
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

If you can't make your mind up
We'll never get started
And I don't want to wind up
Being parted, broken hearted

So if you really love me say, "yes"
But if you don't, dear, confess
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

It's confused when you can't make up your mind, whether to leave someone or to be with someone, whether to give up the current one and take risk to be with someone else, that's a hard choice.

Let's leave this situation aside.

Watched so many movies this week, 3 so far, probably will watch 2 more this week? very crazy, even though there is no good movie showing.

Went clubbing last night and tonight went to Temple Street, walk around, doesn't feel like you're in Hong Kong, maybe I walk around CWB only, so it feel differently in Kowloon, got 2 dvd, 30 dollars each, one Modern Talking MTV and one Italian singer, the Modern Talking one is so good.  Will definitely want to go to China and get more DVDs as they are selling 10 dollar each probably.

Another crazy night tomorrow cos all midterms are done by tomorrow. kekeke, will go out to clubbing most probably.

but this means that I can't play until next Sat night :( poor.

Wake up late this morning, didn't go to tutorial, but thanks George sending me the notes for the class.  I think I didn't miss much as she refuse to reveal anything about the exam.  I think it's gonna to be fine, as I have put enough effort in it already, lecturer said if anyone fail on the midterm, we need to resit for another midterm in next July.  That's real bad if one need to resit.

For the monday exam, I haven't flip notes on it yet, total dead, and even worse, it worth 25% :( dead. Have to start study right after exam tmr night. Non-stop study from Sat night to Mon afternoon.  How many hours I have? 30 hours should be enough :)

Had wierd dream just now.

Watched a DVD, Before Sunset, how could you make a movie like this? 2 hours movie, and it reflects 2 hours of real life.  That's funny enough.  睇完有的同感.

didn't mean to play hard over the weekends, but again, I relaxed for it,  hang out with Victor in MLF, after he fished, I went to Hei Hei with C on Fri night, had much fun, met T (H's friend) in Hei Hei, C left early and we chatted and dance together, we stayed at Mcdonald until 9 am, isn't that crazy?  He did tell me something about H, but I don't really want to know, so I didn't ask more in depth, but I can draw inference that H is having a new gf, fine, they are all past tense right?

I didn't think of him or another H these few days, enough shit that I've taken.

On Saturday, I watch a movie with Des, Gloomy Sunday, not bad, I like the feeling the movie brought, seems like you are breathing with the air in Budapest.

Sunday, another lazy day, guess what I did? haha

Will keep swimming twice a week.

Had lots of drink though, beer+long island+B52 (1 shot).  Enter into the sleeping mode right away.  He took me home afterwards.

Wake up at 11am, rush and submit the assignment which due today, then go sing K with stan+eric+ed+victor, fun afternoon.

Back home afterwards, wrap up another assignment, did little reading, msning for the whole night, felt mo liu.  I was again thinking :(

Went out with Victor in the afternoon, walking around MK and bought a mo liu doll for myself, it's cheap, just $15.  Then went to Eason concert and that was just ok, as I'm not a big fan of him.  Only the last couple of songs sound familiar to me, especially the 夕陽無限好, used to listen to that when I was with H last year. oh well...

After the concert, we (S+E) went for Tsui Wah for noodle, then we head to bar, had some nice chat there.  Wish J to be here, that would be great fun. keke.

That place make me forget about all the relationship stuff, as nothing will happen over there really.  But still, I can still see guys with big chest and big arm around, all those suffice.

我把自己關起來只留下一個陽台
每當天黑推開窗 我對著夜幕發呆
看著往事 一幕一幕 再次演出你我的愛

我把電視機打開聽著別人的對白
也許那些故事可以給我一個交代
你要的愛 我學不來
眼睜睜看情變壞 人怔怔看情感慨

不能給你未來 我還你現在
安靜結束也是另一種對待 當眼淚流下來
傷已超載 分開也是另一種明白

我給你最後的疼愛是手放開
不要一張雙人床中間隔著一片海
感情的污點就留給時間慢慢漂白
把愛收進胸前左邊口袋

最後的疼愛是手放開
不想用言語拉扯所以選擇不責怪
感情就像候車月台 有人走有人來
我的心是一個站牌 寫著等待

我把收音機打開聽著別人的失敗
哽咽的聲音彷彿訴說著相同悲哀
你的依賴 還在胸懷
我無法輕易推開 我無法隨便走開
感情中專心的人容易被傷害

Finally, life without any H, that's the final destination.

As I did the assignment for Monday, today is a pretty relax day, Stanley went hiking with friends so I decide to go swim myself, as to keep it as a habit, and I want to build up muscles on biceps and shoulders. Keke, look better.

Sept 25 is H's (keep H for continuity purpose only) Bday, was thinking whether to get him things, or send him card, or give him a call, or ... finally the day has come and I decide to text him with a simple line, just "Happy Birthday and wish you the best"

I felt relieved. 不想放手,還須放手